Weigh in Wednesday, on a Thursday.

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So my post is late. That is all I’m going to comment on that.

So I skipped last weeks weigh in because I was WAY OFF TRACK. I mean I was stuffing my face with everything. First it was Mother’s Day, you can’t diet on Mother’s Day. Then my brother was in DC so we went down to see him and I was depressed for a day. Then I had my period and NO ONE diets during their period. Again, it was the loop of excuses. Then I stepped on the scale and guess what? I GAINED WEIGHT. yeah go figure. You gain weight after eating like a piggy for 10 days. But I got back on track, and a current flu bug, so guess who has lost the weight that she gained? This girl! My weight loss journey is going to be hard. I knew this when I began. So seeing a gain on the scale scared me back into being healthy.

Goal by June 25: -30

Ultimate Goal by the time I die (lol): -130

4/23: -2

4/30: -5.8

5/7: -4.2

5/14: +3.6

5/22: -4.4

Total: 12.8 lbs

If I buckle down and focus for these next five weeks, I definitely have a shot at getting to my goal weight by the time I am in Texas. Heck an extra stomach flu wouldn’t hurt either on my goals for weight loss. So now after writing this I’m going to climb back onto my couch and watch the season finale of Nashville and wallow in self pity for being sick.

I hope the rest of you have a better week that I do. ha.

 

Another Linky Party

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So I’m kind of in love with link up parties now. They give me inspiration on days that I have none and they give me a sort of direction that I want certain stories to shape. Obviously I have a voice and a story. I just didn’t know how to shape it at first. I always felt like my post never connected and never really told a whole story. Now I can see how my story is coming together. Well my rambles are starting to connect better. Onto the story now.

Let’s focus first on last week’s goals. And remember I’m writing this on Sunday so this is Monday through Sunday type of deal.

Finish week 1 c25k – Let’s chalk this up to a sport’s injury. Okay okay I got a piece of glass in my foot while I was walking and it’s still not healing. I’m thinking that this week I am going to go to the doctor to look at it. So this one was a complete and utter bust. I guess it’s not an excuse that I wasn’t able to do this because I am physically hurt and couldn’t help it. But I did sign up for my first 5k that is in 2 weeks.

Track ALL my food this week – Surprisingly this was the easy one. I was able to track everything and it was AWESOME. I could physically see after I binged that I didn’t blow my whole day. Maybe I was over 3 days this past week. But I was under for the week so I know I didn’t blow it ALL. This journey is about finding balance. Sunday I lost all my self control and ate everything that was in my way. I couldn’t stop. We saw a movie and I just couldn’t help myself from getting popcorn. If I had just stopped there I would have been fine. At least weigh in isn’t Monday. Tuesday morning the scale might be a cruel cruel woman.

Eat 2 snacks a day – I did eat 2 snacks a day. But I ate my second snack at like 10 o’clock at night. So we will call this a push. I didn’t win this, but I didn’t fail at it. My late night snacks are always what pushed me to the brink of going over my caloric intake. But my late night snacks saved my sanity this week. This week was a ROLLER COASTER RIDE. Thursday I woke up to a screw in my tire, had to take the son to school, I was late for work, and I just didn’t have the patience to deal with an emergency at that point. So I sat by the tire and just cried. Yeah. I had a mental breakdown. Got it together and got everyone where they needed to go. Eventually.

So this past week was not my friend. We are going to call this past week hell week. Next week will be my friend. I know she will be. There cannot be anymore holes in my tires because I don’t have enough fix a flat to fix another flat.

Now onto my goals for this week:

1.Finish Week 1 and 2 of C25k

This might be a bit overboard, but I don’t give a hoot. I am going to do this. Jess from Operation Skinny Jeans is my inspiration for this goal. She said “Make a goal and go for it 100%”. And this past week I was running on 40%. Who cares that I had a nail in my tire? If I had fit an early morning work out, I would have see the nail when I went to the gym and gotten the car to the shop at 6 instead of 9. Which brings me to goal 2.

2. Go to the gym with my husband in the morning Monday – Friday

I did this already at 6 a.m. this morning. Oh goodness it was a ROUGH morning. But I did it. The only way I’m going to finish C25k is if I get my butt into the gym and do it. I have the biggest gym motivator living with me. My husband loves early morning gym. This will also help me go to bed sooner. I know how much of a happier person I am if I go to bed before midnight. I usually get to bed on time 1/2 of the week, but this will help me get there more often. This will also help me get to my goal of 30 pounds in 10 weeks.

3. Not go over calories for the week

I did really bad this past week on this. Well not REALLY bad, but bad enough that I noticed. Heck Sunday I pigged out. And it’s my fault. I went to work on an empty stomach and with no snack. When I got home I started STUFFING my face. I mean I inhaled food literally. It was bad and ugly. When I told my husband I hadn’t eaten since 8 the night before and it was like 1 the next day, he understood why I was hurting.

Man I really thought out those goals this time. They are really big goals too. But I want big things for me. I want to achieve big goals. I want to lose an ultimate goal weight of 130 pounds. I finally decided how much I wanted to lose. And I never ever want to find those pounds again. I need to set high goals for myself because I want something bigger I want something better. I want to be able to go back to college next year (2014) and sit in those tiny desks and not feel my stomach touch them. I want to be able to shop for size mediums. I want to be able to look at myself and go “damn I worked hard for this body”, not “damn maybe I should have skipped that cheeseburger”.

My first Link Up

I don’t exactly know what a linkup is, but it seems like something simple to do instead of writing a real blog. About real topics. Because all I want to talk about right now is how I’m sitting in the office without pants on because the roommate will be gone for 48 hours and I banned my children to their room so I can have some quality time without any pants on. Sadly, I look forward to no pants time than sex now of days. By the way, I freakin’ hate pants. Can’t wait until summer time and I can toss on those dresses again.

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So I was told to post this. I think it’s a photo of someone named Holly and someone named Jake. To be perfectly honest with you, I just found out who they were within the last 48 hours. So sue me. I don’t get a lot of time to read multiple blogs. I’m up to reading 2 a week. I’ll probably have to choose between the two to make my total 3 blogs a week. I’ll probably choose Jake because I don’t need to compare myself to another internet super mom.

Back to the link up topic. It’s finishing sentences. Here we go:

1. People always tell me that I look too young to have children. Well I would have been 17 when my step son was born. I don’t know if this is a compliment or judgement. I was having sex at 17 but I was smart enough to buy condoms.
2. In the movie based on my life, I would hope they would skip over my visits to the porn store on my 20th birthday.
3. Typically, I end up regretting the second scoop of hot sauce at Freebirds.
4. I always ask to leave off the salt on my margaritas. I don’t need to taste the sea while I’m trying to get drunk.
5. Kim and Kanye really need to discuss giving their child up for adoption. That child is going to be raised entitled, and we don’t need another Kim.
6. My Parents always reminded me that it was ‘easier to beg for forgiveness than ask for permission’. I bet they regret telling me that now.
7. Every single day I tell my children “don’t eat that off the floor”. But it’s the only way my floor gets cleaned.
8. This one time in College I had my boyfriend cum inside my roommates shampoo bottle. I ended up marrying that guy. And she is now living in Spain. Womp Womp.
9. My grossest habit is I let my dog eat my boogers. True story.
10. My latest white lie was “I’ll make lunch in 5 minutes” to my kids. I said that about 15 minutes ago. I feel like my lies will help them learn about disappointment in life.
11. I know all the words to Grillz by Nelly. I wanted to prove I was thug life. This is my go to drunk karaoke song.
12. When I grow up I want to be the Pope. Hey at the rate the Catholics are going through people it’s totally realistic.
13. Sexy time is ruined after having children. True story.
14. I will never, ever be able to paint my walls Chevron pattern. The hubster put his foot down on this idea. And the chandelier above our bed. but he did say that he’s open to mirrors up there. That’s never ever going to happen.
15. I think it’s hilarious someone says “penis”. I’m giggling right now. True Story.
Last but not least, here’s the photo about how I feel about today. Photo on 3-3-13 at 9.23 PM #2